So lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what this blog is, and what it means, and what I want it to mean.
I’ve ranted and raved. I’ve given you secrets. I’ve told you too much. I’ve told you too little. I’ve bragged. I’ve self-deprecated. I’ve dated. I’ve kissed and told, and then some. So what next?
I can’t always eloquently display what I mean with spoken word. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said the first thing that popped into my head and immediately had to apologise to who I said it to. My mouth moves faster than my brain 90% of the time and it’s especially bad on dates.
I’d like to keep writing what I feel like here when I feel like it. It might be an extremely unedited rant about a mid 20s crisis, a very carefully crafted post about the last date I went on, or a really important life changing piece about how you should be washing your face (with oil btw, post tbc). Whatever it is, I’ve written it because it makes me feel better to have written and shared it, and hopefully some other 20 something’s will relate to it.
It’s hard being a very private person, trying to explain the concept of a blog about my life to people. I know it doesn’t make any sense; if I were that private surely I wouldn’t want to put everything out there for the entire world to read.
Which is a fairly good point. I cringe at some of the things I’ve written, and I wish I could take some of it back.
But the beauty of a blog is that you can separate your real life from your online life. You get to pick and choose what you display. You use words and the spaces between to tell a story from your perspective. And for the most part I think I’ve done that genuinely and consistently over the last 4 years, and I think I’m ready to display more of myself, and less of what I thought would be interesting.
I can’t tell you how to live your life. I can’t tell you what you should do to feel fulfilled with your path, or whom you should meet, or where you should go, but I can tell you what I’m doing and how it’s helping (sometimes hindering) me to live mine. And maybe that’ll help you.